Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Woo Saa!!! I Really Need to Vent Right Now!!!

I'm not so good today, really, I haven't been for a while. I was suppose to be moving to NY this month, and because of finances, it's once again getting pushed back. Now with God's help I'll be there in Jan. Trying to find a job to earn a little money to take with me when I go. Can't find a damn thing. If I had a dollar for every place I've applied to I'd be Oprah rich. I love American and being an American, but there's not much to be proud of these days. Our country is doing us so dirty, it's disgusting!!! From the recession (or as I like to call it repression, a combo of recession and depression) to them dragging their lazy uncaring feet about giving us affordable health care, when so many in parts of Europe have it for free, I don't know half the time if I'm coming or going. No one in this country who has a multitude of job experience, and or a college degree, should EVER have to wait more than six months for employment, PERIOD!!!
God bless us all, we really need a miracle soon!!!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Sticks and Stones


If it were up to me as well as many other women regardless of age, the phrase Cougar (in reference to an older woman dating a younger man) would be completely abolished from the pop culture dictionary. This phrase is so ridonkulously immature and sexist, it's like nails on a chalkboard every time I hear it. I could be wrong, I've tried to do some research on this word, and I've been able to find out the country where it originated, (Canada)but no luck on determining if males coined this bit of verbal vomit or not. Until I can get a definitive answer, I believe dudes started this shit!!! I say this, because why would a woman demean herself this way? Think about it.

Also, ponder for a moment, about how many slang words there
are for a woman who is
promiscuous:
Slut
, Whore, Skank, Trollop, Ho, Jezebel, Trick, Hussy, Strumpet,
who knows, there could be more, but those are all the ones I've heard of.

Yet, how many words can any of you think of off hand, are there for men
who sleep around? In doing my research, I discovered words for older
gay men who date younger men, but I didn't uncover any for straight
guys. If there are words for guys who get around, (I'm sure they're only a few)
I'm positive none are as derogatory in nature, as they are for women.

If you want proof of much the issue is slanted, Exhibit A:
an article I peeped out in US magazine July 2009, is listed above.
As much as I am against this kind of age difference, at the end of
the day if both parties respect one another, and the relationship
is functional and non abusive, then that's
the most important thing, so I suppose it could be worse, what can
you do? However, it's still gross in my humble opinion.
However, keep in mind (for those of you old enough to remember),
Cher dated a guy in the late 80's, several years younger than her,
I think he worked in a bagel shop, or something to that effect.
And it was plastered all over the media from sea to shining sea.
Everybody and their Mama, and their Mama's Mama flipped out
over it, and had a crapload to say about it.
The same was true with Demi and Ashton when they began dating,
and that's a fifteen year age difference.
Now compare that relationship, if you will, to Jeff and Tania, which
by the way had I not bought US magazine to check out an article on
Michael Jackson, I probably wouldn't have heard hide nor hair about it !!!

Was that the lead story on Access Hollywood, was that on the cover
of People, OK magazine etc.? I don't think so!!!!!

Bottom line is that it's acceptable for men, and not women to date
someone who is many years younger.

Jeff 56, Tania 21!!!!!
A 35 YEAR AGE DIFFERENCE!!!!!

Now let that marinate for a moment!!!




Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Out of Control!!!!!!!!!!!

Has anyone heard about the abortion doctor who was murdered this past Sunday 5.31.09? I found out about it the day it happened. And I'm completely disgusted and horrified!!!
Whatever your views are on abortion rights, and for the record I'M PRO CHOICE. This is not the way to go about voicing your opinion!!! What horrifies me the most is that he was murdered in church on a Sunday whilst being an usher! Are you mutherfucking kidding me!!!!!!
These people claim to hold human life in such high regard, and yet so often this is what they resort to!!! Believe it or not I'm actually praying for anti-abortion individuals who take this stance. Because in my opinion they need JESUS the most!!! If you are not very religious, or an atheist, then at last pray, for lack of a better word, for these people to have more compassion for other human beings. This person had friends and a family, who now have to mourn the senseless death of their loved one while in the House of GOD!!! If you consider abortion murder, then why is shooting someone in a church any less obscene!!!
As DL Hughley would say "They need Jesus"!!!

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/05/31/george-tiller-killed-abor_n_209504.html

Cheers Peeps!!!

Friday, May 22, 2009

What Next?

You don't write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say. -F. Scott Fitzgerald

I apologize for bringing anyone down, or reminding
anyone of something they once went or are currently going
through.
I'm hoping, that in sharing my feelings on what depression has done to me,
that it will help others going through the same types of experiences,
to know they are not alone.
However, I don't have that many people to confide in, so
I write my thoughts here.

As each day passes my depression chips away a little more
of my soul, bit by bit.
It saddens me to say this, but it's very true.
In a couple of weeks I will be going to my very first
therapy session.
I'm glad to be finally getting some help, but at the same time
I truly wish that it did not have to get to this point.
It's not that I frown on therapy, it's just that for many years
I was able to rely on my friends for support. And that was more
enough, unfortunately that's just not the case anymore.
Me of all people, it still blows my mind, all these years later,
that I'm in this situation.
My social circle dwindled down to NOTHING!!!
Everyday for me is so immensely long, I have no job, no friends to
go out with, and very few people to talk with on the telephone.
The isolation is excruciating. However, I'm not a loner by nature.
I don't have issues with being alone that in of itself. Everyone has periods
when they need to be by themselves, whether their taking a breather
after a stressful situation, or simply just enjoying their own company.
However, human interaction is where I thrive.
And that's why this next bit is so ironic.
I recently joined Facebook, in an effort to reconnect with people
I care about, that I hadn't seen in a while.
Hoping, to
reestablish certain relationships, and finally have some
social interaction again.
But looking at all the photos of people that I don't see on a regular
basis, happy and laughing, talking about all the places they've been to
and how much fun they're having is like a knife in my heart.
I had such high hopes when I joined, but now visiting Facebook is
breaking my heart.
Believe me, I don't begrudge them their happiness, I only want the
best for them, and always will. But why have I become the person on
the outside looking in?
It's wrong on so many levels.
It's such a struggle to get from one hour to the next, let alone one
day to the next. But I'm hangin' in there.
I deserve better!!! and I will fight like hell to get it.
I don't know what the future holds, but I do know I'd like to have my
friendships back.
As for now, I'll sit patiently in the waiting room reading a Soap Opera
Weekly, anxious to hear what God's plan is for me.

Cheers

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Dylan Moran-Rejection

Dylan Moran-Rejection
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A lovely clip that should be seen by all writers.

Dylan Moran is the SHIT!!!

Cheers



Thursday, April 23, 2009

"Don't Get Caught With Your Panties Down"

"Don't Get Caught With Your Panties Down"
Phrase of the week courtesy of Erika Kristen.
Explanation: Simply put, handle your business (another phrase),
do what you need to do, so you're not standing around saying what happened.


So much negativity so little time.
Everybody has a dream or dreams.
Please, I implore you don't let other people's narrow
minded thinking
stop you from pursuing yours.
This is an issue I'm very passionate about,
as I have been for
many years. So bare with me.
It pains me that unfortunately we live in a
very ageist country.
We tell the people around us, once you reach a certain age
its time to call it a life.
We're touted as being a country of doers and dreamers,
jumping in and getting our hands dirty, pulling out all the stops in
order to achieve a goal. Perhaps that was true overall, at some point.
I know there are still many people who believe and practice this
philosophy, but I find that quite often that
ideology is contradicted,
because of our irrational and unrealistic views toward aging.
We shouldn't only talk about how tenacious we are, on the 4th of July
in front of television cameras, for the local evening news.
I sincerely believe that nothing is beyond your grasp.
But within reason. (And no I'm no back peddling)
Let's say you're in you're 80's, and you want to become a doctor, and
you never finished or attended college at all.
When you combine four years of college, medical school, and a residency,
probably not a realistic goal.
I know that's an extreme example, but none the less there are plenty
of people who give up on something, and then look back years later with
tremendous regret.
My overall point is that those of us in our 20's and 30's, have plenty of time
left before we have to throw in the proverbial towel.
Did you know that there are people in their mid 20's that think their old
because they'll be 30 in five years. Talk about being pessimistic and
ungrateful.

As the phrase goes: "Don't be that person"

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Soap Rant of the Day

Why Soapnet Why?
(OK actually it's not that serious)
But their WACK ASS programming decisions are making
my head spin at the moment.
There's not too much that they get right these days, but their
marathons are Bomb! It gives me the chance to catch up all
at once.
The airing of Y&R at six pm, along with the tagline
"Saturday Night in the City" was a perfect programming fit
considering the sleekness of the show.
And now, they've pushed it up to 3 o'clock in the afternoon, (ARE YOU KIDDING ME)
for the sole purpose of propping yet another non-related soap show!!!
(the DAMN Gilmore Girls of all things) that airs smack dab in the middle
of their Saturday night prime time line up. FUCKING PATHETIC!!!
For what it's worth, I'm not completely looking a gift horse in the mouth,
at least they still air a Y&R marathon, unlike Days of Our Lives,
that got dismissed last year.
I just wish Soapnet would remember the name of their network when deciding
what to put on it.
There I go again being logical.

Silly me.

Cheers

Monday, April 6, 2009

Doin the Damn Thang


(I Love that phrase, my friend Bird taught me that one)
You know that I've always been a writer of sorts.
And that I've wanted to do it professionally for quite some time. The majority of it will be satirical in nature, my favorite genre. But for now, I'm exorcising some demons that need to be kicked to the curb. The day before my Birthday, I thought to myself what better way other than therapy, (which I'll also be going to very soon) to heal myself and get off this long dark road I'm on, than honestly writing about how I feel. So, I've starting blogging. There's a traffic jam on that road right now, but I can see the exit in the distance. I just have to stay in my car and be patient. If your interested, maybe we can carpool.

Starting My Do Over


But not in the way one might typically think.
There really is only one thing in my life that I wish hadn't happened,
(More on that at a later date) other that I wouldn't change a thing.
I just want a chance once again to stand at the starting gate.
I'm in my own version of the End Of Days. Not as biblical in nature, but

still just as dire. It's time for me to break camp and start my life over.
As bad as my depression has been, I have to remember the fact that
I'm still young, and anything is possible, and I have a chance to see where
those possibilities will take me because I'm still here.
Lately there seems to have been an influx of children being murdered
by their parents or someone else close to them.

A father murdered his two young children, several weeks ago, who were both
under the age of ten, simply because he did not like the mother's new boyfriend.
Also, several months ago an 8 year old in California was raped
by a WOMAN!!! no less (what's that shit about???),
with a foreign object, and then strangled to death. Lord Have Mercy.
Those little ones will never have the chance to finish school, overcome
obstacles and challenges, have their first best friend, boyfriend or girlfriend,
begin the career of their dreams, get married, raise children, grow old with
the people they love more than anyone in the world, because their breath was stolen from them.

But for me, and anyone else reading this, WERE STILL HERE!!!
And though it doesn't feel like it at the moment, it's the biggest blessing we have right now!!!

There's still so much more I have to say on this issue.
I'll hit you guys on the flip side.

Cheers


Saturday, April 4, 2009

Rest in PEACE Guiding Light

Kimisha L. Pierce As much as the demise of Guiding Light breaks my heart into a million pieces, the sad fact is that the blame lies solely with the producers of this show. There were many things that could have been done over the last several years to prevent this, things that were not insurmountable by any means, and it didn't happen. Personally, in my humble opinion, I strongly feel that the video major college freshmen cinematography that the show was so fixated on was the main issue that dug its grave. No matter how good the story is, the amateur filming style was too distracting. Although, I did my part and tried to the contribute to ratings, one person is not enough. It's too bad online viewing did not count, at least as far as I know. If so that's BULLSHIT! They could have come up with a way to figure that in, that would have saved it alone.!!! In any case GL being gone is a blasphemous tragedy!
A show that's been in existence since the 30's on radio, & tv since the 50's should still be here. SHAME Ellen Wheeler/P&G